Thursday, February 03, 2005
yessa.. my blog is finally done. no more pain reading it. ive been so restless this week. no mood to do anything and everything.
someone eva heard of da chinese saying:: bei ai shi xin fu, ai ren shi tong ku. to be loved is a blessing, to love is sorrow (i think). my chinese suck. it's so so true.. think about it.
im so so tired.
really. confusions and complications - all filled muh mind. i was thinking of giving up, seriously. but i know i cant bring myself to do it. how could i ever thought of that? wad will i do when dearie's not by my side? how would i feel when i dont have his love? i really need a break.
but i cant bring myself to do it again. this is irritating me. when i really cant take it, i'll just give it all up, and i mean it.
soon.
ive been crying myself to bed these days. and the feeling is like.. no one would ever think of unless u experience it urself. i might look bubbly and happy-go-lucky girl, whom is having all the love in the world, to most of muh friends. but i am NOT. worries have been kept in my heart always. school, finance, family, boyfriend, friends, God. im still learing how to balance my time. and above all these, manage my relationship with all these.. boo. one day i cant take it and i'll collapse.
dear. dont get the wrong idea. ive never regretted knowing u.. just that i thought, we should spend more time with each other before we got into this relationship. some words are better left unsaid, some things u and i really cant explain. u noe how much u mean to me kay? i love u.. =D
audrieeee@hotmail.com
